FruStrAtioNs

Okay, I did study for my tomorrow igneous test before I went for the mapping fieldtrip. I did borrow an igneous book from the library as my reference book (so called). Neways, as I tried to do the lab sheet of the phase diagrams, I feel like dropping the F-bomb to Ron (which is the lecturer of the unit) because the lecture note doesn't help at all and so does the book I've borrowed. I've email him twice regarding my need of an aid in this matter but no reply. I'd emailed him before i went to field trip.. no reply. yesterday I'd email him again.. no reply.. again. For goodness sake. I know it's wrong to act this way but I am so damn pissed off. I've ask during tutorial, but it doesn't help either. What pissing me of is that I'm not that kind of person who grasp things quickly. I'm not that bright like bunch of them who complains how hard it is but they get extinction in exams while me, it is by the grace of God i didn't fail. I feel like screaming for now. Too bad I'm in the library now trying to work out my way to understand the phase diagram. sigh. Lord, I'm sorry. I don't want to fail any unit. I've been a laughing stock in my life. They don't think I can go this far but You prove them wrong. You shame them by raising me up to this place. Each time I pray asking You to teach to trust You more each day. Maybe this day is that day. Lord, I ask for Yourn strength to strengthen me for I am weak. I ask upom Your wisdom in helping me in my studies. I ask for courage to face the world and I ask for Your peace and assurance of love, company, guidance and protection. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.