RanDom

I celebrated my new year's day with crying for the whole day. Sitting there on that white leather couch staring blankly on that black flat screen tv, seem to be normal for someone who has nothing to do. But it was not normal that day, red rim around the eyes, bloodshot eye balls and tears streaming down my cheeks. He's there beside me. Slithering his tongue speaking and whispering to me.

" There, there sweetheart. I told you so you will get hurt again. I told you so things won't work out. Do you know why? It's because of you. If you weren't with him, he won't suffer like this doesn't he? He could have been happy out there living a normal life he wanted to. He is better off without you. He deserve better. Why are you doing this to him? Go along dear. Run to your Father. Run and never come back to this road again. No matter how much you love one another, it will never work. It's unfair for him dear. If you love him, let him go. Guard yourself from this thing called love. It do you no good doesn't it? "

His reasons seem reasonable to me. I cried. I cried because I can't bear the pain of loosing him. I cried for the pain that he have to go through because of my mistakes. I called my Father deep in my soul. Groaning. I feel so alone. Within that chaotic mess of my head and my inner turmoil, I heard his voice.

"I hope whenever I get to see you again, I won't have to go through another new walls besides the one that already been there."

It seems so distance yet so near. Then things began to unfold. Then it came to me like a hammer hit on my skull.

" Love never fails. Love prevails."

I looked at him and his slithering tongue. I never thought of looking at him with such clear view. His words are like poisons. Every word of it. After all these years I believed him but not today. Not today.